Side swiped by unexpected feelings.

This weekend my dormant spirit woke up. More like, BUSTED OUT! It all started when I took the plunge and took a drive to NYC for the weekend.  Would you believe in the past I planned several weekends trips to the city, but cancelled each one at the last minute? I did. I totally did!

Why? Hmmm…

Well, at first I was stumped. Why was I making plans to visit friends in the city and then fall short at the last minute blaming it on clients and work? I wasn’t even aware there was something going on. I’m so BUSTED! I needed to do some internal investigating.

The report?

Well, first, the drive. I was anxious about driving into the city and where to park, BUT as soon as I approached the George Washington Bridge I knew I had come home. This grand riveting structure was my solid steel welcoming committee. Second, was about revisiting a city I had so much struggle with. A city where I found darkness hidden in every corner. Surrounded by thousands of people and still feeling like I was the only one there.  The Big Apple literally bit me up, swallowed me whole and spit me out…several times!

OK – let me tell ya – That didn’t stop me. I am a HUGE risk taker and LOVE diving into feelings and journeys and all that biz. I just eat it up!!

This weekend I was hungry.  Just after one day in the city- being silly with my silly partner-in-crime Joe my creative embers started to blaze. You see – I had been away from NYC for almost 4 years. That is the longest I have ever been away from that lonely small-big city. Was it because I was afraid I wasn’t going to feel the same about the city, like I used to? Would it have the same heat intensity? The same feeling that I can BE anything I set my heart to? Damn straight it did.

I was even more juiced to be back in the Apple. I was DRIVING and I felt FREE! I was in the driver’s seat both in my car and in my life. It was so easy to drive through the streets of Manhattan. Can I say, the biggest highlight was driving through Time Square in all it’s bright glory. AND even though I got two tickets and I side swiped another driver causing some minor damage to the body of my car, it didn’t phase me. Oh, sure – it bothered me for a few minutes, but then I said to myself,  “What will getting upset and angry solve?”  It wont change anything. Don’t get me wrong – I allowed myself to get upset, but then I let it go. Thanks, Tanya and Steven! (They were with me!)

I even met someone who I could potentially date. I mean, I felt a connection with him. Will it work out? Who knows yet. All I know is I set the wheels in motion and now it’s up to the universe and this other person to provide some oil. I at least need to see the other guy making efforts to move the world for me. ; )

In a nutshell, with my school work and coaching business, I neglected to play with my spirit. DUDE – let me tell you something. It took a weekend drive to NYC, being silly with Joe, getting two traffic tickets and side swiping a car to get my mojo moving again.

Life is pretty damn sweet! Tickets, car accidents and all. NYC here I come. Well, at least the weekends for now.

Feed your spirit. Play with your soul.

From the trenches…

Greg Halpen

The Gay Guy’s Love Coach